You feel so close as your skin rests against mine. My mind is wandering again, unable to stop. I feel so alone even when you are next to me. I don’t dare to move for fear this is merely an illusion. The understanding you have for who I am is scarce. What you know of my soul is nothing. I long for the feeling, that when I lie next to someone I feel complete. They want to save me, save me from the lonely nights. I feel too reluctant to allow this to become. They move too fast, hoping to gain some sort of happiness from me. What I cannot give them is what they want. When I feel as if nothing is given to me in return, I hold my breath and plunge into my deep watery safety. All my ability to care is stripped as my feet hit the bottom of the blue. As I open my eyes my cares drift away. This is not where I drown in lonliness nor depression. This is where I escape from the expectations of them. The place I drown in sweet love, love for myself, love for my son & love for the universe. This longing is only temporary, I will find what I deserve in time. As for now.. The water feels so warm.
Tauni Johnson
well this is a site i never seen before.
this blog is very good.
showing your inner desire and the desire of what people exspect doin that close encounter of physical and mental connection with you and that other person.
i like it.
its always good to hear what people gotta say in there on perspective.
okay, i fucking love this one its amazinggg =]
so beautiful. <3
-ps yes it was about my mother.
I don’t know If I said it already but …Excellent site, keep up the good work. I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis and for the most part, people lack substance but, I just wanted to make a quick comment to say I’m glad I found your blog. Thanks,
A definite great read..Jim Bean
Thank you so much! your comment means a lot to me =]
hello,
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black hattitude.